Roraness

So. I never update my journal. Because, I don't have anything to say like, ever. Quite frankly I'm boring and like nobody reads these, but anyway. My last entry was from 2010 and super emo, and I got tired of seeing it on my profile page so. Update. Or whatever. Visited my bff ~wolfdragon15 (https://www.deviantart.com/wolfdragon15) back in August, and it was the best thing like ever I really, REALLY hope I can go back in May for her graduation ;3; I've been drawing more lately, and I can at least say I'm happier with how my drawings come out. I'm not good, not by a long shot, but I've improved at least. I still take forever to finish stuff, because I get distracted or st

I'm having a lot of trouble sleeping again lately. My insomnia problems were improving for a while, but they're getting worse again. I can never seem to keep a consistent sleep schedule, no matter how hard I try. It gets thrown off so easily. Even if I feel tired, it's still hard to get to sleep. Lately I just lay in bed at night, and the vast majority of the time I either get really depressed or really restless, often both. It gets to the point where I can't stand to stay there anymore, so I just get back up. It feels like I'm going crazy, and my brain won't shut the hell up about anything. Damn raging thoughts. I wish I could shut the dam

Grahh, I'm having so much trouble with my stupid family. We can't stop fighting. I feel like they never listen to me, and even if they did it isn't like they can understand what it's like to feel this way. I totally sound like an emo teenager, fantastic Mom is so passive-aggressive bitch I could just scream. Then somehow everything is MY fault for insulting her. 'Cause, you know, everything I say is an insult apparently. She needs to lay off the vodka I'd leave if I could, but there's really nowhere for me to go. :/ Part of the problem is missing doses of my meds. Exacerbates everything and makes it that much worse. But it isn't like I c